/Monday, February 25, 2008
with love; 11:47 PM
i was the happiest girl, i was..I always knew it was just a matter of time before he left. I was lucky enough to see it coming. I just hold on to my faith and i told myself to be strong. My positive feelings have turned into a facade. I'm still finding the words to say, words to live by. My vision blurred but i refused to cry, fearing that once i start, i would not stop. In the past twenty four hours, i experiences every emotions. Hurt. Anger. Sorrow. Despair.Confusion and loss.
It was our mistake to fall for each other. Yes, you're right. Maybe, we're not meant for each other. I let time heal my wounds. The wounds you created two years ago has not yet dissapear. I'd still remember every bit of it. You made me tough. Thank you for showering me all the love. I couldn't asked for anything more. SOmetimes in life, you have to make sacrifices. Letting me go was one of the hardest thing you have to do. But letting you go for the thousandth time was even worse.I'll just accept everything that happens to me. I keep reminding myself, God has bigger and greater plans for me than what i have for myself.
Dissapointed.