/Saturday, March 15, 2008
with love; 1:22 AM
it's funny how when i closed my eyes, and you always chase my thoughts away. When i couldn't sleep at night, i'll keep replaying every beautiful moment we had, and before i knew it, i'll be in my dreamland. I wanted to be strong, to stay strong in any circumstances. For my seventeen years of life, i admit i experience quite a few things. I guess that really makes me a whole lot of a stronger person. I had always tried my very best in everything i do. At the end of the day, i was still incapable of love. I'm such a failure. It's just not for me, at all. Maybe, the time hasn't come. I'm glad it hasn't come yet, cos i'm never ready. No, i would never rule out relationships. Someday i might decide i'm ready, but that day isn't even in the pipeline.I don't hold any regrets, i don't want to. You just taught me the first step in life, or maybe the second or third. I hold on to you for quite some time now, it's time to let go. Yes. Let go, Nasiha. It's not yours. I'm trying to live with that sentence. I don't want to receive any reassurance that everything will be okay.You really hit me hard..
SITI FAIRUZANA AND ZAHIDAH, my bestfriends who had always been there for me all this while. I love you both soo much. And Mummy, i'm really sorry if i made you worried. I just needed time on my own. I'm fine now :)