/Tuesday, October 28, 2008
with love; 7:52 PM
I told you, i was very faithful. Been pushing hard to open the doors, but you're just numbless. I'm done with it, i can't do it anymore. I'm drained up. We've been running in the circles for sometime now. There's no end for this, & infact i suppose there's no beginning to it? Let's stop pretending.i wonder why it's soo impossible cos i've been searching the barrier between us.<3
/Monday, October 27, 2008
with love; 9:48 AM
Still 25th October:It was a suprised birthday from my girlfriends. It all started when i was laying on my bed while applying cold compress on my forehead & my mum went inside my room & said that Aqilah came. I was really shocked. I went outside and she was innocently sitting at the sofa, smilling suspiciously. I had the cheek to ask where was the rest of our girlfriends? (since some of them didn't wish me). Haha. Nasiha no shame. We exchanged our gifts (like Christmas like that eh?). And i chatted, joked and crapped with her for 10 minutes when suddenly my other 2 girlfriends came inside with a birthday cake and they sang a birthday song for me. Okay people. You know i'm a very very very extremely shy girl. So i asked them to "ssshhhhhh'' cos i was super duper shy. Still shy eventhough we've been friends for almost ten years now. Aqilah wanted to take a picture while i was blowing the cake, & again i was too shy so i quickly blow off the lighted candle before she could even on the camera. HAHA! The atmosphere was very funny.. oh you know my girlfriends. They are one of the funniest beings i've met cos we could laugh about a particular thing or a particular someone for hours & hours.Went out of the house by 7pm and headed to Orchard, had a light dinner & met up with another girlfriend. My night was absolutely fun cos the girls were with me. What more could i ask for?Then headed to Dbl O. It was hot. I swear this time round i was a good girl.Thank you all. Loves <3
/Saturday, October 25, 2008
with love; 2:15 PM
HAPPY 18TH!!
Mum baked two birthday cakes for me; one chocolate cake & the other one is a chocolate & strawberry cake. She forgot to buy candles. It's okay. I still love it!
My baby love, Zana, bought for me a Strawberry Shortcake birthday cake. She suprised me last night at my door, at 12 midnight exactly.. & gave that cake. One of the sweetest thing that i ever got. Sadly, she can't be with me to celebrate my birthday. Come home soon!PAAARRTY! I'm so excited, more pictures are yet to be taken & uploaded..
Thanks to Danish, i fall really sick.. Cos he passed his virus through the phone lines(Matrix Version). & i'm soo sick that i didnt countdown on my birthday; (which i usually did for the past birthdays), & instead i slept through the night. I was down with high fever, dry cough and bad flu. I think i sneezed every 50 seconds. Eventually i was awoken by the calls & text from my peeps. Thanks to those who had wished me :)
/Wednesday, October 22, 2008
with love; 8:34 PM
I'm drained right now. I'm fugging lethargic. I don't know where to start..or how to end? I'm clueless and yet i need time. Time is what i need most, & somehow rather i've abused it. I feel such a fool anyway..I told you; things had just been going all wrong. I'm insanely trying to fix things out. I can't seemed to cry. There's no tears in my eyes. Willingly, i would want to cry right now to release my anger/sadness/stressed. I tried but i failed. The last time i shed one dot of pathetic tear was last Saturday when my computer broke down. It lasted for 5 seconds.I'm so pathetic now. & pathetically, i feel so defendless.
/Sunday, October 19, 2008
with love; 8:46 PM
You know what i'm feeling right now? Heartbroken; heart is being shattered into million of pieces. Numbless, speechless, motionless. Every emotions you could ever think of. Bloody devastated; how could this happened?My desktop broke down. Some fcuking virus destroy it. This means that all my pictures and music are gone. Okay let me emphasize on that again; ALL MY HUNDREDS OF PICTURES AND MUSICS ARE GONE! Blame me for not having any backup files. Goddammit. My heart is crushed..and it's still crushing when i think of it. & now i can't even switch on to my desktop. On a lighter note, the laptop had save 1/5 of my life. 4/5 of my life is still under-construction. Bad/unlucky things have been happening to me for the past few days/weeks :(I'm a sad sad sad girl :(
/Saturday, October 18, 2008
with love; 4:24 PM
i swear this week didn't brought me any favour at all. It's just not the week for me. There's just too many mixed feelings going around. I guess some things are better left unsaid.Mum's setting up rules at home. It's irritating cos i must follow the rules or else she'll be very mad. For once i'd listen to her cos as days goes by, she's becoming a lil sensitive.6 more days, i'll be able to buy a nicotine!
/Thursday, October 16, 2008
with love; 10:13 PM
"you used to be special someone to me. i know you, deep inside you. You're a great girl. But i can't carry myself to have the guts to face you. I'm speechless..
our hearts are miles away..."
& i said "i already told my angels to take care of you.."
/Tuesday, October 14, 2008
with love; 8:32 PM
12/10/2008 Raya outing with my loved ones. I miss them already.
/Sunday, October 12, 2008
with love; 1:44 PM
I think that i was laughing throughout the day. The girls were really damn funny especially when they crack the stupidest and lamest joke ever. Ok i prefer Hari Raya outing with my primary school mates. I would never feel like a lampost cos each of them who turned up wouldn't bring along their BFs/GFs. Anyhoos, it's nice to meet up with them after for so-many-decades of not seeing each other. The girls have already grown up very well; i mean i've known them for almost nine to ten years or so? We see each other grow..It's tremendous how beautifuly they have grown. Although most of them didn't turned up, the outing did turned out well. Next year will be much fun, right Aqilah? Cos some of them would have gotten their car license..This gives advantage cos my leg's are really sore(eventhough i didn't wear heels).. I need easy accessible transportation; no public transport. Too hassle.
/Saturday, October 11, 2008
with love; 12:57 AM
Happy 18th Birthday, Danish!
:)
/Thursday, October 9, 2008
with love; 12:15 AM
i choose to like you in silence..it won't hurt right?
/Wednesday, October 8, 2008
with love; 10:45 PM
/Sunday, October 5, 2008
with love; 10:37 PM
Ain't holding back anymore; life's too great to get upset. Futhermore, i bet the future would be much interesting than this. Why bother? Why bother; knowing that the other part doesn't? Legal age is coming soon! Very excited cos i can't wait to get my motor license. Mum is being supportive. Therefore, i'll have to behave for the next few months cos i'm seriously broke now.
/Friday, October 3, 2008
with love; 12:21 AM
i stayed at home today although my aunties & lil cousins insisted i tagged along with them for jalan raya. i woke up early today(12.31pm) by the noises from my lil cousins. They came to my house wearing glamourously whereas i came out from my room looking shity with my messsy hair & smelly face & mouth(i admit ok!) Instead of tagging along, i slept throughout the day. Sis came to my house at night cos i have to help her insert songs/pictures into her new phone. Brother & herself bought the same Sony Ericson Cybershot phone(5 megapixels somemore!) The moment they step inside the house, they quickly came up to me(without even kasi salam) & began to show off. Ok Nasiha, keep your cool! Life's too great to get jealous. It's time for me to get a new phone too :(
i spend almost 5 hours arranging my accessories & nail polishes & sooo much more. It turned out to be pretty :D 
My princess bed. I think that Miss SS(strawberry shortcake) takes up almost 1/4 of my bed. Must ask my Mum to buy for me King size bed eh?! Suka eh Miss SS!
More picturess to be put up on the mirror! :D
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Ain't holding back anymore; life's too great to get upset. Futhermore, i bet the future would be much interesting than this. Why bother? Why bother; knowing that the other part doesn't? Legal age is coming soon! Very excited cos i can't wait to get my motor license. Mum is being supportive. Therefore, i'll have to behave for the next few months cos i'm seriously broke now.
