Currently i'm doing a casestudy/project about a disease called Hodgkin's lymphoma. It's tougher than i ever thought it would be. But it's kindda interesting & fun though there's sooo many things i've to read & understand, some words seems so alien to me. I've been reading about diseases for the past few weeks & i can't take my hands off it. The more i learned new things, i realised the less i know. Wooh!
/Friday, July 25, 2008
with love; 8:11 PM
21 days since i've heard silence from you. Keep it up.
/Thursday, July 24, 2008
with love; 8:34 PM
No matter how far apart we are, we'll be bestfriends forever. I love you both.
/Tuesday, July 22, 2008
with love; 10:51 PM
And i misss going to school & my awesome friends. Bet they miss me too.
/Sunday, July 20, 2008
with love; 7:08 PM
I wonder how it feels like to get married. I mean the preparations & stuffs. It seems to be soo exciting & yet stressful at the same time. I can't wait for them to get married, though at the same time i know i'll definitely miss my brother alot whom i'm very, very close with. He's my evil twin cos he's the bad one & he's the 'guy version' of me. We look alike. Well, im proud to say that no matter how 'kental' he can be, he'll still be my hero. Oh common, i've been living with him since my whole life. I can't imagine the feeling's like when i wake up, & the next thing i know..he's not living with me anymore. Sheesh. I hate this feeling. As i'm the only girl in the family, i'd received too much love. I was brought up with two brothers beside me who protects me in every way & you don't know how much they took great care of me. Soo many things happened & i'm grateful that i have them in my life. There are times when i feel like killing them or even punch their faces..Cos they're guys & they tend not to understand my feelings..But at the end of the day, they're just being a good brother. As we get older, things changed. & somewhere along that zigzag line, we're apart. I miss you Abang. Oh and the Strawberry Shortcake towel you bought for me last year for my 17th birthday, i still keep it and i used it as my blanket when im sleeping. Cos i know, no matter how far apart we are, you'll take care of me. I can always count on you(although you always ask me for money).
/Saturday, July 19, 2008
with love; 12:38 PM
Been busy the whole week. The days i've spent were either working or sleeping at home. It's soo frustrating cos i'm just too tired to do anything else. I don't even get the chance to talk to my mum or have that simple conversation with her. Neither do i have that strain of muscles to reply any text messages.
I realised what matters most to me last time, don't matters me anymore right now. i can't seem to be bothered with anything. I wish i could.
/Wednesday, July 16, 2008
with love; 4:16 PM
MR BALDED HAIR! *MELTS*
/Monday, July 14, 2008
with love; 5:43 PM
Had an awesome time with her. Did some catching up. Time passes by quickly even we didnt realise it's been almost a month since we've last met, right? Wanna meet her again cos i miss you still :(
Ohh,& congrats to Aqilah who found a new boyfy! I'm soo happy for her. Hopefully this time round, it'll turn out well.
And i think i found a new hobby for myself. Sewing.
/Friday, July 11, 2008
with love; 6:49 PM
Completed my one week at Tampines Polyclinic. Im so happy. Will be working this weekend, making myself busy. I think i prefer it this way. My stomach is bloated. Bloodfy fat. I swear. I'm soo disgusted with myself. I miss my Mum alot, it's been a long time since i've seen her. It's not like i did not come back home or something. Cos when i'm asleep, she's awake and when she's awake, i'm asleep. I want to go shopping with her, i'm running out of watch & wallet :(
Anyway my teacher thinks im awesome. She said, "Good Nasiha, you always think out of the box. Keep it up. I like the way you think." HAHAHAHA. I didn't know someone could be impressed with me. Cos you know, i do talk nonsense sometimes. Or maybe everytime. So i was kindda shocked when she said that to me when i answer her question. You know the feeling when someone said to you, "i think you got the beautiful smile ever, all man in the world will melt when you smile." Yes that feeling. HAHAHA.
I think i wanna learn Hokkien.
/Tuesday, July 8, 2008
with love; 12:20 AM
i must get used to waking up extraaaa early, so annoying. & somehow people can be soo damn selfish and unreasonable at times. Working life is totally different than what you expect. I'm tired already. I need to get my beauty sleep. Ok bye.
/Sunday, July 6, 2008
with love; 10:51 PM
i don't wish to utter any single words of despair now. Maybe silence is the best answer. i don't know what's inside your mind right now, i guess i was wrong to fall in love with you. You claimed that you needed me & boy, you're confusing me. Or maybe you're just too confused with your feelings? Third time & still calling, i'm never going to forgive myself for this. I made the same mistake like before. You're just too blind to see the good one infront of you & yet you choose to let go of it. I'm not in the losing end, it's you. Take my words seriously cos you don't know every single way i wanted you.
/Friday, July 4, 2008
with love; 2:21 AM
what is the world turning to? is it me or them or you or my imagination? i feel soo frustrated when i see man or should i say HOT GUYS who are gays. & i mean real hot hunks. They are like soo many of them scattered everywhere. Where's all the good guys went to? It's either they turn gays or they're attached. & i'm like here drooling from far while they aren't checking out on me. Obviously i'm invisble to them. Damn it. I feel so betrayed now.
/Wednesday, July 2, 2008
with love; 2:59 AM
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go looking around. And wonder where did I go wrong. Instead I've found no meaning. I've heard what they say, too much. It's more than just words. I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind & hold the memory close at hand. I want to go far, far away where i find comfort in pain. Maybe tomorrow i'll wake up & everything would just be an awful dream.
