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/Saturday, January 31, 2009

with love; 1:03 AM

Work has been really fun. It may be so tiring & dreadful but i think having the girls around is just great. You know who you are. You girlssss are suchaaa bitchhhh & i like!! We kill time in the ward by just crapping & bitching with each other. It's kindda interesting because we share different hot topics everyday. Mostly on boys, boys & more boys..

/Wednesday, January 28, 2009

with love; 8:24 PM

why do we always fight fight fight? Let's forget the situation, can we not fight again anymore? It's just too hurting to start a fight cos we used too many hurting words; too much vulgarities. Why are we blind to see that the ones we've hurt are just you & me? I want us to be happy. It has just been days but we're already at the thin line. I gave you a chance cos i decided to give myself a second chance to fall in love, once again.

/Monday, January 26, 2009

with love; 1:53 PM

/Saturday, January 24, 2009

with love; 12:57 AM

We spent great times together, especially when you were able to have a home leave for a week. We were soo close at that point of time especially when our parents were out from town. Shopping, eating, gossiping, laughing, eating, crapping & did i mention more eating? JB trips which we planned wayyy early. And one of the best nights were dining at Newton. Before that, we headed to a musuem in Dhoby Ghaut which we had to climb such a high and steep stairs & i was panting like one asthmatic girl. You were the first one to reach & Nurul was pulling my hand as i was far behind, trying to catch up. After that we headed to Newton and ordered soo much food. One huge pot of Chilli crab and other side dishes.. & i still remembered when you said, 'i didn't regret bringing you here to eat, you're an eater'. And we went walk back home from Yishun MRT with big and bloated tummy. And since then, Nurul was able to pass motion easily everyday huh? And i suggested we should go there again soon. You always disturb me that i'm fat and fat and fat but i will insist that i'm not fat & we'll laugh all the way. I know you loveeee to disturb my big tummy. Ohh did i forgot? We planned to go to Thailand for a holiday after you're fully recovered.

I couldnt believe; i lost someone so special.

Allah loves you more. We'll definitely going to miss you. Your smile, your laughter, your presence & your voice. I'm glad that i got the chance to say that i love you before the final seconds..Death is not the end; it's the beginning of life. No more pain, no more suffering; with those needles, machines, tubing and all.. You're free.. I know Allah is taking good care of you right now. I'll always pray for you. We'll meet again soon. Al-fatihah.

/Thursday, January 15, 2009

with love; 4:42 PM

Life is just too unpredictable.. & right now, i can't even predict what's going to happen next?

/Sunday, January 11, 2009

with love; 6:02 PM

Sumpah siak zahidah, muka kau pat bawah macam fighter. A fighter, not a lover. HAHA!

The picture below, Zahidah is busy checking out guys -.-

Zana, sexy lips lah..

Outing with both of my bestfriends is what i need yesterday, or infact every weekends if possible. Despite all of our busy schedules; we managed to slot in a perfect saturday for the three of us. I love my bestfriends, my bestfriends love me & that what matters most.

/Tuesday, January 6, 2009

with love; 6:03 PM

It sucks to wake up early in the morning. It sucks even more when you have two different shifts. Well, i guess i have to get used to the timing after for one long month of waking up 4 in the afternoon. I can't wait for my attachment to finish (it's just starting!). I prefer schooling anyway & i bet the rest agrees with me too. Going to school is not as tiring as having attachment eventhough school is located far far far away from my place. Oh & i soo need a part time job right now. I'm learning to be independent slowly. I'm not a princess but i wish i am one :( I can't be sitting at home & expect money($$$$) to drop at the palms of my hand. Mum changed her mind that i should take car license instead of motor. I need a new cellphone. Thanks to my countless clumsiness, i'm always dropping it. The screen/LCD cracked. & this isin't the first time. I want to do a room make-over. Room remains pink but i plan to add more princess/cinderalla vibe. (Still be faithful to Strawberry Shortcake). Though i gets older each year, i'm young at heart. Tsk tsk! Then i planned that i need a good holiday. Ahhhh too many things to accomplish before i turn 19. Brother's getting married a week after i turn 19 which is also his 25th birthday. Then my family & i will welcome a new member to our family. Insyaallah ;)

/Sunday, January 4, 2009

with love; 2:01 PM

i think this is my first post for 2009. The start of 2009 has been a little tough on me. Somehow i find the first month of the new year, have always tripped me up. It is as if i'm unable to let go of the year just past. Where did all those 365 days go? I think at this rate, i will forver be playing catch-up with time. While i replay all the memory lane, February will turn up before i realise and i will be left reeling with regret over things i've done or things not done this month. Why regret? Trust me, this is harder than it sounds. But i try not to worry. I'll take one day at a time. One of my 2009 resolution is not to rue the past but to embrace it. All the tears, joys, laughter, anger & all mixed emotions; you first have to acknowledge it cos at the end of the day, it had shaped you the way you are right now in 2009. Someone recently told me, now is what matters the most. It snapped me back in reality. I need to break the cycle of dredging up the past. A new year, a new beginning & a desire for starting afresh is so strong.