/Sunday, December 30, 2007
with love; 12:10 AM
One more day to 2008. I can't believe it's coming to an end and it's gonna be a new year soon. 2007 was one of the toughest year i had so far. All the memories of 2007 came flooding back to me. I wish i could rewind the time & undo things, something was amiss. So many things had happened, so many obstacles i've leap in 365 days. I'll admit that 2007 was ambushed with full of emotions. I kept replaying it over & over in my mind. I remembered clearly how stress i was during my Olevel period. I NEVER want to do it again. NEVER. Apart from schools and studies, i was a lil cranky. I have to apologise to both of my parents for being a lil stuborn. I manage to get myself back to root in time, thankfully. I swear i was full with emotions, a mixed one. Maybe, i'm a regular teenage who undergoes this 'normal cycle'. I believe every other human being undergoes the same too, i hope. Some days, i felt i'm the luckiest girl alive. Other days, i felt i'm the unluckiest, fattest and ugliest girl. Some afternoon, i would laugh endlessly. Some morning, i'll curse myself to get up to school. Then, there were the nights i cried myself to sleep. I had always dealt with my challenges by pushing down my feelings. I was filled with hopelessness and emphaty. At times, i felt i'm doing everything alone and that the world just brings me down. Things, peoples and feelings come and go in a fraction of a second. I realise, only the true will stay on. And i would like to emphasise again, the TRUE.
Then there were my great families and friends who assured me solemnly that everything was going to be fine. Those were the peoples who keep me secure, never fails to reassure me & had love me unconditionally. Talk about real love, i realise i have not fallen in love for quite sometime now. Maybe a year or so? I rather it stays like this. I've been jaded and disillusioned in the past. To be in love, it's too strong & powerful. To be in a relationship, it's too committed. & i'm never ready.
My greatest suprise for 2007 was that in the end it was no surprise.
/Saturday, December 29, 2007
with love; 5:39 PM
It's funny how i think of you and tears just start rolling off my cheeks. Please don't tell me it's happening again.
/Friday, December 28, 2007
with love; 12:42 AM
So many things happened lately & i've been too busy to even find a time to blog. As you can see i'm a busy working woman. It's all about the money baby. My legs are aching badly cos i'd stand too much. I think i wanna change to other job, somewhere i can sit all day long. Hmm.
Anyway, i went to Zoo the day before and it was AWESOME. I wanna go again, please.
^_^
/Sunday, December 23, 2007
with love; 10:21 PM
it's been a decade since i've last seen her. I don't even know where the hell she went missing. Prolly she's busy working. Babe, call me soon and ask me out. I really miss you, plus the other two girls too.
/Saturday, December 22, 2007
with love; 2:26 PM
I Miss my Bestfriends soo much. I realised how busy i am and how caught up i am with work. Woaah. My mind is all about MONEY. I'm not a Money face anyway!
Anyway, i realised, again, that both of my bestfriends' name starts with a letter 'Z'
COOL RIGHT? HAHAHA. i don't know why, but i was soo freaking excited.
Zahidah & Zana
I MISS BOTH OF YOU BADLY <3
/Thursday, December 20, 2007
with love; 12:40 AM
Mum was bored the whole day and she planned to baked some cookies. So i decided to helped her out. I'm really keen to learn how to baked cookies and cook and do housechore and many many more. HAHAHA. For my future husband.
^_^
Mum said that if i don't know how to do them, my 'husband' might leave me for some other women. HAHAHA. Granny have never stop nagging at me since four years ago. She always ask me to cook, housechore, etc. I'm so sick and tired of people telling me, especially my AUNTIES. So makcik-makcik. All they do is threathen me(something like that). For example, they'll say ''Nanti suami kau tinggalkan kau baru kau tau'' ''Nanti kalau kau da besar, siapa nak kahwin dgn kau. Takde laki nk isteri yang tak tau buat kerja rumah ''
At first when they told me, i quickly shrieked out. I was so scared if noone would marry me. HAHAHA. I know it sound so weird.
So i decided to change and start doing housechore and learn how to cook by tomorrow. I hope so.
^_^
The most funniest part is that when i entered the kitchen, my mind suddenly changed. Instantly, i headed back to my room and lay on my bed. I decide not to do anything. Who knows when im cutting something, i might cut my fingers and then it'll bleed. Then i get HIV. HAHAHA.
Ended up, brother was the one who helped my mum(AS USUAL) and i played the computer.
Ok Ok. I'll change from tomorrow onwards. I HOPE by end of this week, i'll know how to cook rice.
BEGINNER MUST DO STEP BY STEP. Mum says that PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT.
^_^
Hahaha. Anyway, I'm savouring for brownies. I think i'll ask my brother to baked it for me.
^_^
/Wednesday, December 19, 2007
with love; 1:11 AM
I'll keep denying, no matter what. Your friendship means a world to me.
/Tuesday, December 18, 2007
with love; 11:49 AM
The rain keeps pouring since in the afternoon. It felt so nice and cold. I spend
my whole day cuddling under my warm blanket while surrounded by all my pillows. I hugged my strawberry shortcake tightly. Mum opened the window widely so the wind could enter my room. I insist on switching on the fan eventhough it was cold enough.
Mum made me a cup of hot chocolate and I grab a box of ferrero rocher and
toblerone from the refrigerator. I chunk everything inside my big tummy while laying down on my bed. I plug in my earpiece and set the volume to the highest.
The song kept replaying over and over again. I smiled. Everything was perfect; the atmosphere. I feel so pampered today :)
No No.. I feel like a real Princess :)
/
with love; 11:42 AM
Ok best! I have a Blog. LIKE FINALLY. After all the hardwork from zana and myself, we manage to find a really cute layout.
HAHAHA.
STRAWBERRY LAYOUT ^_^
We created my blog since two weeks ago, but i was soo soo soo lazy to update it.
Hahaha. Semangat satu minute aje. But i'll start updating it from tomorrow
onwards, i hope so.
There are so many things in my mind right now and i think i need a blog. Cos this
is where i can trash my daily thoughts. It would be soo nice.
So beautiful people, i'll be back soon before long. Toodly!
it's been a decade since i've last seen her. I don't even know where the hell she went missing. Prolly she's busy working. Babe, call me soon and ask me out. I really miss you, plus the other two girls too.
