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/Saturday, June 28, 2008

with love; 6:16 PM

Soo zahidah & i stayed up until 5 in the morning & woke up at 3 in the afternoon. We had an endless conversation, talked about everything & anything.

& BEN IF YOU'RE READING THIS PLEASE STOP READING MY BLOG COS YOUR COMMENTS ARE SOO IRRITATING. Haha!

/Friday, June 27, 2008

with love; 7:41 PM

I've been staying at home for the past four days. I guess somehow rather my Mum could tell i need something to cheer me up, so she brought me shopping. And i bought aloooooot of stuffs, and it's not enough. I want more. PIG.

Thanks Mum. I love you. Not b'cos you took me shopping, cos you're the only person who could really tell how i was feeling. And you pampered me alot, or too much..Cos i know you love me & you want the best of me.. And i've not been a good daughter :( I'm sorry. I'll try to wash my plates, iron the clothes, & cook rice. Just give me time to learn, prolly another 5 years time?

One of the reason i've been staying at home was the sudden outbreak of pimples on my face. It was HORRIBLE & UGLY. There were FIVE of them scattered on my face. And i've been crying for the past two days because of that evil pimple. They ruin my life :(

But i'm back on track. Gonna spend my friday night @ Zahidah's place or let me rephrase my sentence. Gonna spend quality time with Zahidah before she starts her attachment. Cos she'll be a busy chef. I hope she won't neglect me nor Benny. Haha! But MOST IMPORTANTLY she should not and would not neglect me. Right? I know.

I feel like strangling myself right now cos my brother said i'm becoming fatter each day. Haha. Such an asshole.

/Wednesday, June 25, 2008

with love; 12:23 AM

CHEYYYYY!! ZAHIDAH GOT A NEW BOYFRIEND! ZAHIDAH HAPPY EHH?? HAHAHA!!

/Tuesday, June 24, 2008

with love; 1:03 AM

ROTTING AT HOME ALL DAY LONG! WAITING FOR SOME MIRACLE TO FALL ONTO ME.

/Monday, June 23, 2008

with love; 1:00 AM

Had a date with Michelle few days ago. There's soo many things to talk about! I missed her soo much! OMG! She's soo gorgeous! I love you babe! Ohh, and i'm happy you got a new boyfy now. And the next date will be at Newton. Hugs & Kisses <3>

Anyway, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHAY TO NUR SYAZWANI! May all your wishes & dreams come true! Hope you have a blast on your 18th Birthday. I LOVE YOU BABY! I wanna meeet you soon :(

/Saturday, June 21, 2008

with love; 12:09 AM

It's time i stop figuring out where the hell i went wrong & quit living in the past.

All that was left was memories which became vague & vague each day. i suppose i can't use the word 'memories' cos my times with you were just days that passed with no exact meaning. Everything that we've build were just meaningless efforts & promises which was made up of empty words & lies. Thanks for making me feel love.. well, i 'll just take it that you're someone who had once made me happy. & you said forever? it's a damn word you convinced me with those teary eyes? Each time the thoughts of you lingered in me, i felt a little piece of my heart chipped away. This is just too much..i'm speechless now.

i need sometime alone, maybe a holiday.

/Thursday, June 19, 2008

with love; 4:28 PM

i love this song, it's great. The lyrics are awesome. Especially for those women who went through heartbreaks, like me. When the guy cheated on you & were two timing. And that love story you created was drowned with just one simple mistake. Or too many mistakes until you couldn't even believe any words he said, not even yours..

i like the part when she sings, "I tried to sit and say to myself,this here is too good, he don't want nothin' else..There it was, it was you and her.."

And she ended the song with, "Why'd you have to lie to me?"

/Monday, June 16, 2008

with love; 3:49 PM

I'm so glad that i found you in the clinic :)

Hubby! You soo cute! I feel like pinching your cheeks!

My two beautiful bestfriends whom i'm in love with soo much :)

/Saturday, June 14, 2008

with love; 3:26 PM

Didn't wanna talk to you at first, thought you were just an ordinary. Didn't even bothered to look at your face. But the moment we bagan to speak, it's just different. There's something about you & i'm just too powerless to even wonder about it. You took me to another level. When you uttered words to me, my heart pumped so fast, my stomach were dancing & when you smiled i felt like a little child. We chat & joke a lil, tried to find any words to have that conversation with you. Stealing glances each time, & when you tried to look into my eyes..i looked away. Not wanting to look into yours. Fear that i'll fall away. It's funny how we used to tell each other to move on. I'd still remember you told me guys are jerks. & i'd still remember i told you girls are sluts. We laughed, cheered each other & gave advices. . & deep down inside us, you missed her & i missed him. Days goes by & time changed us. Never thought there would be so much more than that.

This time it's different, cos deep down inside; i miss you.

/Friday, June 13, 2008

with love; 12:12 AM

He escaped death. Lucky for him, God gave a long life ahead of him. I hope the people who had hurt him will get caught soon. You don't know how much he'd suffered, not even myself.

Hopelessly waiting.

/Thursday, June 12, 2008

with love; 3:16 PM

Have been waiting :(

/Wednesday, June 11, 2008

with love; 1:21 AM

I'm still waiting :(

/Tuesday, June 10, 2008

with love; 2:07 AM

One week you went silent while i'm here trying to figure out what's wrong. Waiting for the phone to beep while you're there bleeding. I want to be there for you :(

/Monday, June 9, 2008

with love; 2:06 PM

One of the best Sundays though it was one of the most random plans i've made. Gonna miss you shaz! Won't be seeing you for the next three months until October! :(
Holiday is here,finally. I'm going to make full use of it. Will be making myself busy,prolly cos i want to get you out of my mind.

/Friday, June 6, 2008

with love; 7:50 PM

I need a real tight slap. I need someone to kick my face & tell me that i should moved on. I need to be brainwash. I need to sleep for three months & wake up the next day & forget everything. I need a break. I need a good long holiday. I need the world to stop and listen to me. I need to listen to people. I need a good food. I need a good laugh. I need to cry for the last time. I need my Mum. I need Zahidah. I need Zana. I need a moment. I need silent. I need icecreams. I need chocolates. I need strawberries. I need that dance. I need to swim in the ocean. I need to walk away. I need to run away. I need to be strong. I need to be alright. I need to see the guilt in your eyes. I need to hear that last goodbye. I need you to go away as far as possible. I need that air. I need something so special.

/Monday, June 2, 2008

with love; 4:33 PM

I never thought that i was calling out for your name eventhough i wasn't in my sense. It made me come to realise that i've really fallen for you. I really do.