i never liked it when people saw me as weak. I wanted to be strong. People keep assuring solemnly that i'm strong cos i've been strong all this while. I'll admit i'm not. Things happened too quickly even before i realised it. Things changed. I learned to cope, at least on the outside. I did not want to be the victim of mild depression. Not the second time round. I wish i could reverse time and undo some stuffs. I can't turn back the clock, but i can wind it up again. Sometimes i cry. I just break down and cry. I don't always have a reason, it just happens. I think i can blame it on the fact that im a girl. Girls do strange things like that. They experience heart breaks. We don't always have a happy ending. I'm done locking up myself in my room for one consecutive week. I'm done crying and crying. I'm done drooling over you. I'm done being not-getting-over-you. Well, atleast i'm trying my best right now.Idon't want to dissapoint myself, especially people around me. I needed real fresh air. I wanted to step outside and see the world again. The world, they have so much more to offer and they're waiting for me. There's soo many things i've yet to attain, learn and experience. I want to live my life, laugh it off, take chances and never have any regrets. I can't wait for the future, cos somehow i can clearly visualize that it'll be soo interesting. I just love you, and you don't have to say anything. I just love you, and i need for you to know that. Im lying if i say i do not. I miss you too. I miss the way you hold me tight and you didn't want to let me go until i pushed you away. I miss when you kiss my nose and i close my eyes, i want that very moment to last forever. I've loved and lost. Love? Define it. I still don't have the exact definition for it. The word is too much; too strong. Let's move on. I'm speechless right now.
